It had been awhile since I had done a naptime regression. I was longing to explore more past lives. It is almost addictive! It is like having access to a time machine and I've always loved books and movies about time travel. I had been in a weird mood all day. Kind of sullen and depressed feeling, this is not very natural for me. I'm usually happy and upbeat and optimistic. I settled in as my two year old's breathing deepened, I could tell that she was asleep now.
Third PLR:
The voice was now familiar to me and as she was helping me relax I found myself analyzing the things she was saying, storing little phrases that I might want to use later in my own hypnosis. I realized that I wasn't listening to her and refocused myself on the task at hand. I breathed deeper and let the warm light she was describing wash over my body. When that process was complete and she began to tell me to step into my past incarnation and look down at my feet I immediately felt different. The slump that I had been in all morning was NOTHING compared to the terrible feelings that flooded me. I looked down at my feet and knew that I wasn't wearing shoes. I saw my dark skin and knew that I was an African American. I had never experienced a life as an African American and was excited to see what was next, but still I couldn't shake the sadness and anger that was coursing through my veins now. I couldn't really get anywhere with finding out where I was. The answers that popped into my head were cynical and heavy. I was on another man's land is all that I heard. Was I married or did I have a family? No. I had nothing. I realized that my lips felt bigger and that my breathing was different because energetically my nose was flatter and broader. I really felt like a big strong black man.
When the voice asked me to go into another portion of the lifetime, it was more of the same. As a teenager I was more sad than angry, but the whole life was just full of bad feelings. My name was Frederick. I resented the life I was living and was full of hate and anger. Almost every answer revolved around freedom and how I was being suppressed and treated like I was less than everyone. I had seen so many people around me die and just knew that I had to stay in my place and do as I was told in order to live the life that I hated. Finally about halfway through the regression the heaviness of Frederick was too much for me. I pulled the ear buds out of my ears and ended the regression.
Reflections:
It is hard to explain the feelings to someone who has not had a PLR, but I really took on his feelings and emotions. I had lived a hard life and never made room for love at all. I was miserable and I just couldn't make room for that within the life that I'm living now. I feel so sorry for him and really wish that things could have been different for all of the people who were enslaved. I pray for healing in that past life and pray that any residue that still follows me now will heal. I have to admit that it kind of haunts me. I have not done a regression with the CD since.
Dear Frederick,
I'm Lindsay, and I am a piece of you in a different kind of America. We have an African American President now and many couples consist of different races. Things have changed a lot! People are more accepting and more open minded than they were when you lived. A man named Martin Luther King, Jr. opened a lot of people's eyes many years ago, and because of people like him we are all considered equals now thank goodness. I'm so sorry for the pain that you endured, Frederick. I'm sorry that you had to feel so angry and sad. I'm sorry that you were mistreated and made to feel like you were less than the people who enslaved you. I won't ever forget the way it felt to be you, but I will make sure to find the beauty in life since you couldn't. I am thankful for you and for all that you endured and pushed through. I thank you for the contributions that you made to who I am today!
Much Love,
Lindsay
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