In early spring I bought my 2 year old a pair of gold loafers from Gap. They were the cutest shoes on her and she seemed to think they were "cool" as well... She wore them every chance she got and they were definitely worth the $35 price tag... Other Moms out there know that little toddler feet grow very fast and that $35 for a pair of shoes that she might not wear long is a lot. Anyway, she wore the gold shoes several times and one evening in late April I ran out to the car to get the shoes (she had slipped them off on the car ride home and I had forgotten to grab them), I was very upset to realize that there was only one shoe in the car! Had it fallen out somewhere? Had it been thrown away when the boy had cleaned out the trash from the our road trip from my car? I went inside and told my husband that I was going to dig through the trash bags for the shoe only to find out that he had already made a trip to the dump. I was so upset and so was she! For several weeks I kept an eye out for the missing shoe... I was so upset! $35 and our favorite little shoes were gone just like that!
After a few weeks of mourning the lost shoe I decided that I just had to order more. They went with everything, were so cute, and we just couldn't do without them! I ordered them and they seemed to take FOREVER to get here. I waited for the UPS truck daily, hoping that the little gilded loafers could once again complete her outfits. The shoes finally came yesterday and I was so excited! I showed her and she literally let out a squeal of delight! Our lives were again complete... ha!
Today after sleeping in and spending a leisurely morning with the family, I ran out to pick up lunch. As we gathered around the long farm house table in our dining room, my 9 year old son excitedly announced that he had found the missing gold shoe. I laughed and explained that I had purchased another pair, but thanked him for not forgetting to keep an eye out for it... He was convinced that he had really found it, and I just played along because it was utterly impossible that the shoe would turn up after this long. I told him to show me the shoe, assuming that I could just say "See I told you!" He ran into the living room and emerged holding the missing left shoe and then ran into the mudroom to gather the other three golden shoes. I couldn't believe it! I had searched high and low for that shoe before ordering more! It had been thrown away, this couldn't be! I shook my head as I looked at $70 worth of shoes. Two identical pairs... How had this happened?
Often times when I'm cooking, fixing my hair, folding laundry, or doing anything that doesn't require a ton of thought I will listen to Abraham-Hicks, Channeling Erik/Jamie Butler & Dr. Medhus, or Kryon on YouTube. I was fixing my hair a little while ago, listening to the thunderstorm outside of my window, and enjoying some Abraham, and as I listened to Esther's voice talk about resistance and it just clicked! Think about it this way-- when the shoe was lost I was really upset about it. It probably sounds silly, but I was quite tormented over the fact that shoe had disappeared. I rarely pay that much for shoes and the one time that I did we lost it! I had never lost a shoe before... Why did it have to be one of our favorite pairs that went missing? All of these thoughts are forms of RESISTANCE. I was holding myself apart from finding the shoe! For four weeks I "kept an eye out" for that missing shoe and stayed upset with myself over it. The very next day after the new pair came it finally turned up. That is not a coincidence! It took me releasing the resistance over losing it and not having it for it to finally be available for us to find. I can't tell you how many times I've dug through that toy bucket with my two year old, the exact place that it turned up!
What kinds of things are you holding yourself apart from? Losing weight? Earning tons of money? Finding a significant other? That other cute shoe??? No matter what it is, think about it in terms of my little shoe ordeal to understand it. I held resistance over the fact that I had lost it and over the fact that I had paid so much for, and it wasn't until I let go of that resistance (by getting another pair and finally releasing those feelings) that I was able to come attract that other shoe into my life.
Call me crazy, but this really put a lot of stuff into perspective for me! Had I been able to just release resistance that I didn't even realize I had about the shoe, I would've found it a long time ago... I would've saved myself $35 (in stay at home mom standards that is a fifth of my weekly grocery budget!), and I wouldn't have basically blocked myself from finding the lost shoe. I wonder how many other "good things" I am holding myself apart from? It really makes me want to release some major resistance!
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