I was seventeen years old and had been married since October... I was in labor with my first son and had been in the hospital since about 11pm the night before. I was frightened and excited about the imminent change that was about to take place in my life. All of my friends were enjoying their senior year and playing soccer-- they were doing what I would be doing had I not gotten pregnant. Instead of preparing for prom and looking forward to graduating, I was learning to be a housewife and preparing to give birth!
It had been a long day so far, and I was just ready to meet my little boy. After avoiding pain medicine for as long as possible, I finally decided that I had felt enough contractions to earn my stripes and could use some relief! I pushed the button for my nurse and asked for some medicine. My husband and his sister were lounging around the room and pretty soon the waiting room would begin to fill up with other family members who were awaiting our bundle of joy. Although the path I was on didn't resemble the path I expected to take in life, I was very accepting of it and was happy and blessed to say the least.
With the relief of medicine coursing through my veins, I began to doze off. I found myself floating above the room, I was seeing everything from the ceiling! I could see myself lying in the bed with my eyes closed, so young and so brave. I could see my husband going through his overnight bag in the corner and I could see his sister sitting sideways in the chair playing with her phone. I was wiser and felt very at peace. I began to float across the room, through the wall above the doorway, and out into the hall. I watched the nurses heading from room to room with their little medicine carts, I could see a doctor heading into a patient's room in blue scrubs, and I could hear the moans of laboring mothers. In the distance I saw a familiar face. It was my Daddy! He had on khaki pants, a brown belt, brown shoes, a button up plaid shirt with a pen in his pocket. I was happy to see him coming toward me. Just as he got to the door of my room and knocked lightly on the door, I was sucked smoothly and quickly through the wall and back into my body. I heard the knock and opened my eyes to see him walking in with a smile on his face. "Hey Daddy!" I said, a bit drowsy and loopy from the medicine. "I just saw you in my dream! You were walking down the hall wearing that same exact outfit..."
Daddy kind of laughed and I could tell that Daniel and his sister found me amusing too, "Was there anything you wanted to tell me?" Daddy asked, still smiling.
"Yes..." I thought about it for a second, because as I watched him walk toward me a million things were going through my head. I was thankful he was there, thankful that he was supportive of me even though he was probably disappointed with me in a way, and I was glad that no matter how many children I had or how married I was that I would always be his baby girl!!! None of those things came out, instead I smiled a little and said. "I wanted to say.... Hey!!!"
At the time I didn't really realize what it was, at the time I had never heard of an OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE, but now thinking back I see that it was definitely an OBE. I have never forgotten it and can remember it so vividly over a decade later! It was a very peaceful and lovely experience. The part of it that really strikes me is how clear my thoughts were and how aware I was. I could see things from a broader perspective, including the room!
Tomorrow my little boy turns 11! I like to joke and say that my labor spanned 3 days, two months, and 27 hours. When he came out the doctor loudly announced "It's a girl!" I didn't even realize that the sun was rising & that it was April Fool's Day already! I gasped and flashes of blue walls and boy clothes bolted through my head as I let out a scream! "April Fools!" he announced, smiling broadly beneath his mask. I am thankful for my son, he established this family and caused me to make decisions that I am truly grateful to have made... I love my life and my family and I really wouldn't have it any other way!
Happy Birthday tomorrow English! I love you!
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