Background Info:
In early December I felt compelled to contact a hypnotherapist who I had seen interviewed on the YouTube Channel "Afterlife TV with Bob Olson." She had done a regression on Bob (that channel is a GREAT RESOURCE!) & he sang her praises. I told her a little bit about myself and my aspirations to become a hypnotherapist like her. Much to my surprise and delight she sent me a lovely reply and a gift of a free audio download. It was an mp3 that usually costs money, but she sent me a link to download the Past Life Regression audio for free. I was beyond excited! I couldn't wait for my 2 year old to take a nap so that I could listen to it!
MY FIRST PLR:
Moments after my little girl fell asleep on me, I settled into a comfortable position and put ear buds in. I listened as the soothing voice encouraged me to relax and let go. I breathed in and out and waited. It is a strange experience, especially the first time or two. You hear your regular thoughts still. I kept questioning if I was doing it right. I analyzed everything at first, but after while I was deep enough for my mind to step aside. She counted backwards and said that at the count of zero that I would find myself in a past life that was important to my current life. She said that some people see the images, some people hear the answers, and some people simply know.
"Zero..." her distant voice began to ask me questions about where I was. I realized that I heard water flowing. She said to look down at my feet to see what kind of shoes I was wearing. I looked down, but I didn't see images at all. I kind of wiggled my toes and realized that I wasn't wearing shoes. She asked my name and I heard sounds that I couldn't quite put together into the form of a name. She asked what I was wearing and again without actually seeing it I knew that I wasn’t wearing much but that it was a tan natural type of dress. What kind of hair and skin did I have? How old was I? I was a 15 year old girl with long flowing black hair and dark lovely skin. Was I happy or sad? I was happy but lonely and misunderstood. I was so shy and different from all of the other girls my age. As the regression progressed I learned a lot about myself. I "felt" like I was her. I "knew" the answers to the questions. I was tall and strong.
The voice (which I sort of wanted to go away and just leave me be so that I could explore these new sensations and thoughts) asked me more about myself and guided me through different portions of the lifetime. I realized that I was a Native American (I guess? It’s the closest thing I can relate the village and experience with) girl who was quiet and shy. I watched the other girls my age and envied them for how outgoing and confident they were. I longed to be noticed and to be extroverted. I was in love with an older man who was important to the tribe. I think he must have been a warrior because he was painted and strong looking. I knew he would never love me back because I was so quiet and awkward. It was so hard to want him so deeply and to know that if I could just be more brave and outgoing that he would be able to see that I was just as desirable as the other girls. I felt such a longing and so disappointed with myself for being how I was.
The voice told me to go forward into my twenties and I did. I realized that I was now the strong handsome warrior's wife! I couldn't believe it! I was happy but still felt lonely and different. I had a hard time believing that he actually wanted me, but he did! He saw me and wanted me despite how I was. I lived a happy life and had his children. When the voice progressed me to the day of my passing I felt tired and old. I knew that I was an old woman now and that my beloved husband had already passed. So many people surrounded me as I died. They all loved me and respected me. It was almost like they were coming to hear my final thoughts on what they should do, or to seek my advice. I left my body and floated above the scene and they were doing some sort of ritual around me. I had such a clear understanding of that life after passing. And dying by the way was lovely and not scary at all. The voice as I refer to it, asked me what I had learned in that lifetime? It simply came into my mind as an understanding... I had spent my whole life worrying about what people thought of me and longing to be something different than I was. I was so unsure of myself that I didn't notice that the people around me actually respected me and valued my opinion. They took my silence for wisdom and really considered the times that I actually spoke up to be nuggets of wisdom and truth. The voice asked me what I could take from that lifetime into my current life and I replied "loyalty and truth." Truth and loyalty were my strength. My weakness was worrying so much about the opinions of other's and envying them, also not believing that the man I eventually married would ever notice me or want me. I didn’t believe in myself but clearly at the end of my life it was evident how much everyone else believed in me and looked to me even after my husband passed. I can't explain how real and true this felt to me. I was instructed to thank this version of me for the attributes that she was offering me and the help that they could be in this lifetime. With a count of five I was awake and again aware of the heavy toddler on my chest and amazed at the journey I had taken. I looked at the time on my phone and couldn't believe that it had been 47 minutes. It literally felt like 5.
Reflections:
In the days following my first past life experience I thought about it a lot.
I have ALWAYS longed to have long dark hair and dark skin. I love running water and sometimes open the drain in the tub just so that I can feel the water still flowing while I soak in the bath. The attributes that she showed me were much needed in my lifetime as Lindsay because although I’m more extroverted now, I still have trouble speaking my truth and standing up for myself rather than just pleasing others.
Her longing for that older more prominent man feels haunting to me. At first I wondered if it was Daniel because he is 5 years older than me in this lifetime, but I don’t think it’s him. It makes me sad that she couldn’t see in herself what the warrior saw in her, but at the same time it’s such a good feeling to know that he sought her out anyway even though there were more obvious and probably more appealing options right in front of him.
The death really gives me a better understanding of what it’s like to die. It wasn’t scary. It was beautiful! And after the ritual I literally ended my life floating back down the same river I had floated in on to start the past life regression. Seems fitting!
The fact that Dellah was on my chest sleeping while I had this experience is also just lovely. I’m sure she was in that life somewhere with me and I love that I get to do life over and over again with the people I love.
I contacted "THE VOICE" via email and thanked her for the audio & told her a bit about my experience. She said that the fact that I couldn't pronounce my name and the fact that there were some things that I just didn't know the answer to were proof that it was real. She said if I had been simply making it up that I would've come up with an Indian sounding name and would have never just said "I don't know..."
The first past life regression is difficult. You get better and better at understanding the feelings and interpreting the situation every time you have one. I will always cherish my first PLR! I’m so thankful for this experience! I can’t wait to sit with these past life memories longer and see how my memories of this lifetime can impact or help my life now. I have a feeling they will!
I can’t wait to explore this more!
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